Ok this post is all about honesty. Please do not judge me as I judge myself. (Yes you did read that correctly!)
Later is my key word. I say it all the time and to a lot of different people.
When I say "later" to Jacob it probably means not today and probably not tomorrow.
"Mom, can I have dessert?" ~ Jacob
"What kind of dessert would you like?" ~Me
"A root beer float!" ~Jacob
"Not now maybe later" ~ unfortunately me
When I say "later" to my friends it basically means no.
"Hey Mindy, do you want to go to the store?" ~ Friend
"Right now?" ~ Me
"Yeah, it will be fun!" ~ Friend
"Maybe later but not right now." ~ unfortunately me again
When I say "later" to Dan it means definitely not today.
"Do you want to do something?" ~ Dan
"Like what?" ~ Me (and yes I say sweet things like that - picture a little bit of attitude thrown in for good measure)
"I don't know. Anything" ~ Dan
"Yeah maybe later" ~ Me
But saying later doesn't just stop at my words ... I tell myself "later" all the time.
When will I feel like an adult? ~~ Later
When should I file bankruptcy? ~~ Later
When should I send out that email? ~~ Later
When should I update twitter/facebook/blog? ~~ Later
When should I make that phone call? ~~ Later
I would love to sponsor a child through Compassion International but that will wait for later.
I would love to start a gluten free diet in my household but it looks a little hard so I will start that later.
How lovely would it be to get up early and spend some time with God? Oh yeah but I stayed up late watching nothing on tv so I will just have to do that later.
I purchased a children and family devotional but why start that now when I can start it later.
I seem to be able to do other things instantly without saying "later" so why does all the things that should be important get put to the back burner.
I feel that there is more to this life and I missing out on it all because I figure I could do it later.
I am sick of waiting for later to come.
Especially since I am the one putting the stipulations on it.
I want to start now. I know I can't do them all but starting with one thing make just make me say "now" instead of "later".