Tonight, I enjoyed Jacob. I hugged him closer. I read more books at bedtime. I looked at the color of his eyes so I knew every single shade in them. I smelled in his scent. I held his tiny hand. I giggled at his chewed finger nails. I didn't tell him no when he asked for chocolate milk before bed. I pulled out my favorite sappy children's book I Love You So ... by Marianne Richmond.
Even though Jacob protested the reading of it ... I read it anyway. I wanted him to know, actually I needed him to know, how much I love him tonight. Especially, tonight!
I tucked him slowly into his own bed. I once again told him how much he means to me. I kissed him on his head and as I walked out the door I looked back. I need to remember these moments. I need to store these moments in my heart. I need to remember them when days are tough and long. I need to remember them when I forget what a miracle he is. Miracles happen all around us everyday. Tonight, I held my son longer.
And ... as my child sleeps in his own bed. There is another boy, Stellan, who is fighting in a hospital bed. His mother, MckMama, by his side praying for him, crying for him, being strong for him, and loving him. She has already fought so many battles for him. She has prayed many, many hours for him since the days he was still growing in her womb. She is a momma who knows that miracles can happen, that DO happen. Tonight, before I tuck myself into bed, I will pray. I will lay myself on the ground before the Lord and humble myself for this little boy.
Will you do the same? Will you pray for him as well?
I am a believer. I believe in a God who performs many miracles. I believe in a God who knows the plans for this child, His child.
I will pray for this family. I will pray that the Lord keeps them strong. I will pray that the Lord will show them His will. I will pray the Lord will hold Stellan's heart and fix it.
MckMama, Prince Charming, and the whole MckFamily tonight I will pray for you. Our God is the same today as He is tomorrow. He is unfailing, unyeilding, and forever faithful to us.
Walk in His Strength,