Dear Lord, I mean Jesus

How can a 7 year old get it better than I can? I am supposed to the mother and the one with all the answers. Jacob totally brought me to my knees tonight.

Before we left my mom's house to go to Awana's at church Jacob saw a baby bird that fell out of the nest. He tried to get me to help the bird but with my tremendous fear of birds I could not do anything but tell him to wash his hands.

I dropped him at Awana's and headed to Starbucks to have a cup of well deserved coffee with my friend. 

I picked him up from church and figured the baby bird fiasco was over. Little did I know he hadn't stopped thinking about it at all.

And the questions began ...

Mom, do you think that the baby bird found his mother?

Mom, do you think the baby bird found his home?

Do you think that the mother is missing her baby bird?

I tried to answer them as best as I could. My answers must not have been sufficient. 

He said, "Mom, I am just so worried! I am going to pray about it."


Here was his prayer ...

Dear Lord, 

I mean Jesus

I am worried about the baby bird in my friends yard

I mean my friend's neighbors yard

Please help the baby bird find his mother.

I am just so worried.

I know that you will figure it out and help that baby bird.

The bird is so cute

I love you Lord and Jesus

I love everyone even stealers and killers

because you love them too.

Jesus you work so hard

Thank you for your hard work.

I love you 

Amen

How come a 7 year old trusts God enough to handle his worries and struggle with it?

I wish I had a child's heart. 

Does your children get it more than you do? Or am I in this boat alone?

Better than a Hallelujah

Today after I dropped Jacob off at school and was headed to the grocery story to pick up a few things I heard Amy Grants "Better Than a Hallelujah" song. If you haven't heard this song you need to find it and listen to it.

My heart has been heavy lately with the major decisions that I need to make in the very near future.

As of right now, I will be moving. I have until August 1st to find a new place to live.

I want Jacob to stay at the same school.I want a forever home so that we will not have to move again.

I want so many things and yet I know my plans may not be the same as God's.

Every night I just pray that God hears my cries and provides for me and family during this time. I have given up my control over the situation and have laid it all in God's hands. His plans are better than mine anyway.

So when I heard Amy Grant's song ... I was overcome with the chorus.

We pour out our miseries
God just hears a melody
Beautiful the mess we are
The honest cries of breaking hearts
Are better than a Hallelujah.

I am thankful that my God finds the beauty in my cries. I am thankful God provides all things for me. I am thankful that God hears my prayers.

Isn't it amazing that God can speak to you through a song? I needed to hear this today.

Normally when I am struggling with life in general I hear the song Tenth Avenue North song "By Your Side" a million times on the radio.

I think that this song may have been written for me to hear. I forget that I am not alone in my journey and that I do not have to be strong every minute of every day.

And I'll be by your side
Wherever you fall
In the dead of night
Whenever you call
And please don't fight
These hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you

Today I know everything will be alright. Today I know that God is holding me in his arms.

Everything will work out.

If you are struggling today with the weight of the world that rests on your shoulders listen to these songs ... cry ... and then give it all to God.

Thank you for continuing to pray for me and my family. Your words have brought me such great joy and an unspeakable strength.

Baby Steps ...

Thank you so much for supporting me as I am going through a very rough time. Right now I am taking baby steps through everything and taking it just one day at a time. I think I have made up my mind about what is going to be right for me and my family. I am looking into several options available to me right now and by August 1st everything should be figured out.

Yes I gave myself a deadline to have everything sorted out and together!

It has been crazy the last few weeks. I just finished my last week of classes and I have finals this coming week.

Please wish me luck. I am hoping to get straight A's giving me a 4.0 gpa. 

Also, I have started back at work temporarily until Jacob is done with school. The extra cash is really going to help me out over the next couple of months.

I am really looking forward to spending the summer with Jacob since this will be the first time I have ever had the option to do so.

I am trying to plan out the things that I want to do and plan in time to get to the library to get our summer reading done. 

As week speak my house is a disaster. I really should be cleaning and putting laundry away. I have had no time to do any of it. This past week I have at two portfolios due and it took a lot of time to get them put together. 

Please still pray for me that everything falls into place. I would like to pray for you too! Shoot me an email at MindyMayW (at) gmail (dot) com or just leave a comment. 

I hope everyone is having a great weekend.

Happy Mother's Day!